much has been going on - I have been coasting and not really engaging into a lot of the thoughts, lessons, struggles, triumphs that life has brought me this fall. I hate it when I go through seasons like this, but it is part of the way I do things, I guess.
another reason that I have been absent is that blogging can sometimes become more than just an obsession for me...it can be an idol in my life. i spent my days going through life and in my head, i am blogging about everything going on. not uncommon, I know. but when I fail to really live in the moment because I am too busy blogging that moment, or thinking about what others will think when they read about that moment, I know it is time to step back.
i have been wanting to start back up, but I am hesitant. i have spent way too much time blog surfing this week and I am not sure if I am want to blog for myself or for attention. i always have this desire to have pure motives, but I have to be honest that I live in a fallen world and I am a sinner. therefore, my motives will never be 100% pure. so I am cautiously stepping back into the blogging mode and we'll see if I can keep it under check.
